It's been a while...

Hello all! 

Oh my god, seriously, how long has it been since I last posted? The answer, very long. 

I have been knee deep in work, college and spending as much time as possible with my very lovely boyfriend. Which has been so great! 

I am happier than I have been in so long. I've finally found the right balance between everything and finally at the stage that I feel very content with everything. 

College is of course, piling on the pressure but I expect absolutely nothing less from them. At one point last week, I questioned even continuing with the course or not. I love it, don't get me wrong, the work is absolutely fine too, but there's a lot of class disruption and I am really finding it hard to concentrate. But, after a long chat with my boyfriend, he's encouraged me to stick at it which is what I shall do! 

Other than that not much has really happened in all honesty, however, with the run up to Christmas I do have some very exciting plans which of course I will inform you all on when the time comes :) 

Sorry it's not been a great post! I am doing a Christmas wishlist over on my other blog so do go on over and check it out! If you're interested to see what I want but probably won't get ha! 

Thanks for reading guys :) 

Love you all. 

Demi x

Bonfire Celebrations.

This is my absolute favourite time of the year. I love everything about it. From the comfy clothes and getting wrapped up, to deciding I want a cosy night in with my boyfriend cuddled in front of the fire with a film on (soppy I know but it's cute). I also love those rainy pyjama days not moving from bed or the sofa. 

With this time of year of course comes Halloween, Bonfire night and the big one, CHRISTMAS. 

Last week was Halloween and it's something I've never been a fan of in all honesty. Bonfire night on the other hand, I love it. 

I never really do anything for Bonfire night normally other than watching everyone else's fireworks from the comfort of my bedroom. With my previous relationship, he never bothered with anything so we never went out as a couple for it. This year however is all very different. 

Me and my boyfriend headed off to an event that happens every year in Sheffield called After Dark. I don't live far from where it's held and can see and hear everything from my house perfectly, so I've never really felt the need to go down and see what it's all about. So last week, I asked my boyfriend if we could go and he of course said yes. So, because of this I expected it to be freezing so went out and bought a new coat, jumper, scarf basically I went all out. 

We eventually got down there and paid £12 for the ticket which I didn't think was too expensive at all. 

There was food stalls, live music from a local radio station and plenty of rides. So, whilst there we had a look round and went on a few rides. 

The fire work display started at 9pm and wow. They were so, so good! It was honestly the best display of fireworks I had ever seen in my life. I also thought it was really cute with me and my boyfriend we stood really nice together and watched them and I don't know how to explain it other than, it was a moment that I will never ever forget. 

Now that bonfire night is out of the way and done with for another year, it's now the countdown to Christmas!! 

I really can't wait for this one and I'm really unsure why. I have absolutely no idea what my boyfriend is planning on getting for me. Whatever it is I know I will love. I've got an idea of what I want to get for him but It's just trying to find the money but I will, I always do somehow. 

On the run up to Christmas we have a few markets planned. Obviously there's the Sheffield one but we also have Lincoln one which I've never been to and when we go and see Courteeners in Manchester we will definitely be having a look round that one too. Still unsure whether or not we're going to make a weekend of it. 

All in all I am really excited and looking so forward for our first Christmas together as a couple. 

Thank you so much for reading :) 

Demi x 

Placement Stress.

Never ever, ever did I think it would be this hard to find a voluntary placement somewhere. 

As some of you might already know, I'm studying Level 3 Health and Social Care at college and as part of the course you have 200 compulsory voluntary placement hours to complete to complete the course. 

Now, before joining the course I knew juggling work, personal and college would be hard, but I didn't know it would be this hard. Especially with the added stress of trying to find a placement. 

Maybe I'm being very stubborn about it, but I really, really want to do my placement in a hospital. Because from college, I want to go to University and learn to become a midwife. I've tried literally all I can to get in to the hospitals in Sheffield and sadly I've had no luck with it at all. It's really starting to get me down now and make me think to myself 

"why am I even bothering with this?" It's like I'm on a treadmill running, but never getting anywhere. 

It's not only a placement in hospitals that I'm struggling with finding a placement in general. 

I thought it would be fairly easy but it's actually not. I'm finding it really hard to try and find one. 

I've got people at work that are trying to help me too through the people they know and recommendation's of places.

Hopefully I'll get somewhere soon! I need to, starting to panic about how I'm going to fit the 100 hours in from now until May! 

Thank you for reading :) 

Demi x

Whirlwind Days.

How bad have I been at sticking to a daily blog? The answer is very. Especially in the last few days, which I do apologise for! 

It's been a bit crazy over the past few days. Sadly, I was back at work and my goodness it killed me! Work is so, so busy lately. Suppose that's part of the working world though just have to suck it up and get on with it. 

I have also spent the best part of the weekend with my boyfriend which was so cute. 

On Friday night we went on a little bit of a date night and went for a meal in a very fancy restaurant. 

It's called Ego and it was in the city centre. I've never been before Friday, like didn't even know it were there or anything, I thought I'd make a huge effort for it and put on a dress and some heels and make a bit of an occasion of it and so that''s what we did. 

As much as I loved it, I did feel a little bit uncomfortable and slightly out of place. It was very, very fancy and that's something that I'm not used to at all. I don't come from much and so, that sort of environment is so new to me, that I think people can see how awkward I look. It was so nice though and my boyfriend knows full well how appreciative I am of nights like those and everything else that he does for me! He really does spoil me and treat and makes me feel like an absolute princess. 

Then last night with it being Halloween and a friend of my boyfriends birthday we all headed off into town! I've never been drinking down town on Halloween so wasn't sure what I was letting myself in for. All in all it was a very good night and we all got very drunk. I don't remember much from the night if I'm going to be completely honest. It's more than fair to say we all woke up this morning with very sore heads. 

Over the weekend my boyfriend and I have been having some quite serious talks about the future and well, whilst there is no intention just yet on either side to have babies and get married, there are talks of other things. 

He's currently looking to buy his first house and we're both so excited, it's not only a new chapter in his life, but also a little chapter in our life together. Now, I won't be moving in with him when he does move out because he hasn't officially asked yet, but I have told him I will be spending a lot of time around at his house. Which he doesn't seem to mind. He's also talking about getting a puppy which I am so excited for!! I've always wanted a dog so for us to have one together I think it's so cute. 

We are currently having a debate about the puppy situation though, the name he's wanting to give the dog is Morrissey (From The Smiths) but I said no, because I hate Morrissey. I've said the better name for it is Serge (named after Sergio from Kasabian) but he's disagreeing with me and we're genuinely arguing over the name of a dog he doesn't have yet. 

Please comment which name of the two you think is better!! 

In all, I am very happy and have been for the past few days. I am so content and there is honestly no better feeling than that! 

Thank you so much for stopping by and reading :) 

Love you all. 

Demi x 

Things are looking up!

Hi all! :) Hope you're all well! I definitely am.

I would like to first off say how sorry I am for the lack of posting. I've had quite a whirlwind of a few days. As some of you may know, I went to the old Coronation Street set on Friday in Manchester and I had such a good day, I absolutely loved it. It was so, so good! 

Then, yesterday I saw my boyfriend which made me really happy! (soppy I know, sorry guys). 

We didn't do much, just went to his local pub which I've never been to before. He knows everyone in there and loved by all and I went into the whole thing feeling like there was a lot of pressure on me to make a good first impression to these people because they are his friends and are very important to him. If it came that they didn't like me, it would then make it so hard for him that they wouldn't want me to be there with them spending time with him in the place he loves. 

The opinions of everyone my boyfriend knows that I've met and still yet to meet is something that I do worry about. I don't want them to think bad of me because, I'm not a bad person (I don't at all mean that in a big-headed way). 

Anyway, it turns out we had a really good night and Resulted in me getting very drunk. But I did really enjoy meeting everyone and was so nice :) 

It just feels like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders and now feel like I can start to relax around everyone he knows whenever I next see them. 

Things between us just seem to be getting better and better and I am just so happy and content at the moment. 

Thank you all for reading :) 

Demi x

Back To Reality.

Hi everyone! 

Sorry for the lack of posting over the last few days, as some of you may know, me and my boyfriend went to Liverpool for the night and a few days. 

Oh my god, we absolutely loved it! It was so, so good and exactly what we needed. 

The shopping in Liverpool is unreal! I was in my elements but sadly, my funds weren't the greatest so I couldn't spend as much as I'd have liked to have. 

The first thing that caught my eye was they have a shop just for MAC. Now, I know to some that may not seem a lot, but we don't have anything like that here in Sheffield. If we want MAC we have to go to a department store, to get to a very small space and even then they don't sell anything so to see a shop purely for that, made my day a little. 

I had a very heartbreaking moment in Liverpool though and I honestly had to try and fight back the tears! Now, anyone that knows me personally, knows that all I want in life, is a Michael Kors bag and purse and a pug. Again, to some this may not seem like much, but to me it's everything. I don't really have much and I work all the hours I can Inbetween studying but still no closer to getting one. I don't get any handouts from my parents or anyone else I literally have to do it all myself and come to the realisation that I will never own a Michael Kors bag or purse. Anyway, my boyfriend knows me very well and knows more than anyone how much I really want one, so what did he do? Yes of course, he made me go in the shop and look at them all! 

It was so hard for me, and I did get all emotional and sad. Coming so close to something you want so much, yet being so far from it too. 

I didn't want to leave to come back to Sheffield at all. It wasn't just having to leave Liverpool in general to come home, but also having to leave my boyfriend. I had such a good time with him that was sad when it all had to come to an end. We are planning for Manchester in December when we go and see Courteeners so we're going to sort something out for then. It was just nice to be alone and away from everyone else for a while. I also think going away like we did, it's honestly made us so much closer and a lot happier. 

I've just got tomorrow to look forward to now though, me and my dad are off to Manchester for the day because I'm going on the Coronation Street studio tour which I am so excited for!! 

Thank you so much for reading guys :) 

Love you all 

Demi  x 

Packing Stress.

GUYS! EMERGENCY!! I go to Liverpool in 2 days, yes, 2 days and I still don't have anything prepared for it! 

This is stressing me out, so so much. 

Usually I am a lot more organised but I don't know if it's because of the cold I've currently got, or if it's just because of the lack of motivation I have everyday. Or both. 

I had such productive plans for today, Instead I've slept and watched a lot of Netflix. 

So, being the aspiring Einstein that I am, I've left ALL my packing for Liverpool till tomorrow. Only, It's a lot more than packing, I have to hunt around Sheffield to find a mini suitcase. If I'm being honest I think I'm making the whole process a lot harder for myself because I do already have a weekend bag that I purchased specially for when I went to Heaton Park in June to see The Courteeners, but, It's just not enough. 

Its also a massive inconvenience to me to have to carry it, having a small suitcase that I could just drag along and try and look cute with would make it a whole lot easier. 

So, tomorrow I have to head out to into town hopefully, I can't be dealing with Meadowhall, and get myself a really cute little suitcase. I Also have to wash and Iron all my clothes because I have absolutely no Idea what to pack and wear whilst I'm there. I need to look at my best though or at least like I've made some sort of an effort. 

I think I'm meeting my boyfriend pretty early too tomorrow because we're going to have a look round the little continental market that's set up in the city centre, which will definitely be all cute and nice. 

Honestly I cannot wait to go to Liverpool!! I am so excited. I've never been before and it's a little getaway which is exactly what I need after the past few weeks that I've had. 

We do also intend on doing some shopping whilst there too so I will do a haul post and put that up on my main blog :)

I am also going to do a What's in my weekend travel bag. So do go on over and check it out when It's on :). 

If you have any ideas where I could go and find a cute little suitcase tomorrow when out on my travels then please do comment and let me know :) It will be very much appreciated.

Thank you all for reading 

Love you all lots

Demi x 

I'm So Lucky!

Hi guys! Hope you're all okay! 

It's currently 10.22 pm on Friday night and I am sat in bed, with my boyfriends hoody on to keep me warm because it is absolutely freezing, watching 24 Hours in A&E, feeling very sorry for myself because well, no one else is. 

In all honesty, I feel and look like something from The Walking Dead. Can you believe it? I am full of cold 3 days before me and my boyfriend go off to Liverpool for the night?! Nightmare. 

Today, I've tried to sleep it all out and drink as much tea as possible because I've heard that they're really good for getting rid of cold's quickly but so far nothing seems to be happening. I feel so horrible, unwell and just generally down. I'm in one of those moods where I feel like I need my boyfriend to be here with me but he isn't he's currently out with his friends having a good time and doing something that young lads his age should be doing and well, who can blame him really? 

I don't know if this is just because I'm ill but I feel like all I need the most is a cuddle from him and everything will be a lot better. 

I will mention that I am in no way the most affectionate person you will find but I don't know, I feel a lot different in this relationship, a good different though! Definitely.  

Whilst I've been ill and not doing much with my day, it's left me with a lot of time to think and today, the realisation of how lucky I am actually hit me. I knew before, but I feel it even more so today and more recently. 

I am so grateful and lucky in the sense that I have found the most amazing, genuine and just an all round lovely lad. Not only do I see him as one of my best friends, but he's also my boyfriend. 

Feeling that way towards someone is honestly one of the best feelings ever to be honest. Honestly, he makes me feel like an absolute princess every single day and it's something I'm finding unusual to come to terms with because, I've never had this feeling before. But its amazing. 

Sorry if it seems like I'm being really cringe-worthy and emotional but, the whole intention of me setting this blog up was to be completely honest and open with both my thoughts and feelings on a daily basis. This is like a journal for me, only it's online for the whole world to see. Yes I do have a main blog with all fashion and other stuff you can find on there, but on here is where you will see the real me and that I do have emotions. This is where I am going to be open about everything whether it be good or bad. I'm currently starting to discover who I really am every day and I feel like I want to take you guys on the journey with me and hope that you will be able to relate in some way and maybe I can help you or you can help me. 

Thank you so, so much for reading! 

Love you all. 

Demi x

Am I Being Selfish?

So, Me and my boyfriend have got ourselves into a little bit of a situation. And, I've left the whole thing thinking that I'm the bad guy.

I should probably say that we have only just very recently got together and so the relationship is something that's very new to us. We are incredibly happy with each other and love every bit of time we spend with one and other no matter what it is that we do.

Due to it being fairly new, I feel like I have to make a really good lasting impression on everyone associated with him that I meet because, I've been in a relationship before where the partner at the time's friends and family didn't like me and well, it wasn't the most pleasant experience I've ever had. So, It would be more than fair to say I don't want a repeat of that again. I feel quite a bit of pressure to impress and will do till I feel I'm comfortable enough to be myself around everyone he knows. 

Anyway, one of his best friends is getting married in May, however, it's also my birthday in May. This is where the situation bit plays it's tiny little role. 

His friend, happens to be getting married on my 21st Birthday!! 

It's an absolute nightmare. 

I wanted us to plan a little trip away somewhere for the weekend and be really cute, and now I'm really upset that I can't celebrate my birthday with him. 

I did some more planning and got some more ideas for something to do for it and I came across the 2016 Formula 1 calendar! 

Formula 1 is something I've loved since I was a baby, I was amazed by the whole thing and my parents always tell me while ever it was on the TV I never cried or anything I was so well behaved. I just love it so much and the Spanish Grand Prix is scheduled for the weekend of my 21st Birthday!! It fits. 

I told my boyfriend about this decision that I'd made to go and he seemed quite upset that I'm going to be out of the country for it. but, he's going to a wedding so we won't see each other anyway? 

I feel really guilty and selfish now. I want to see him and want him to spend my birthday with me and not at the wedding but there's absolutely nothing that I can do about it.

I'm so relaxed when it comes to him going out and seeing his mates, I believe you need that in a relationship. When it's all new, spending a lot of time together at first is too much and too intense. 

Just, this is just one of them times where I want him to be with me for my day. 

I don't know, I just can't help but feel like I'm in the wrong. My boyfriend 100% isn't its just very unfortunate timing! 

Feel like I'm being really unreasonable and selfish though, what do you guys think? 

Thank you for reading and sorry for being so down! 

Love you all

Demi x

What a Blur..

Do you ever get those days, where everything is just a complete and utter blur? 

I get them days fairly often to be perfectly honest. 

Today wasn't overly exciting, just the usual, work. But I don't know. It's been a really funny day. Funny as in, odd. Nothing has gone right for me at all. 

It's made me question a lot. Over the past few weeks I've been questioning the simplest of things, but it's something I've done even more so today. 

There's no logical explanation for it. 

To make matters even worse, today, I remembered my Anatomy and Physiology assignment that I've not done which needs to be handed in first thing tomorrow morning!! 

Absolute Nightmare! 

Oh well, at least I've only got one day of college and two more shifts at work to do and then I've done for the week. Cannot wait!! Got some mint plans for next week. 

On Monday me and my boyfriend are escaping off to Liverpool, only for the night but it'll be a nice change from being in Sheffield all the time and just being alone where no one else knows us, can't wait to do some shopping too! 

Wednesday I'm getting my hair done, which will be a surprise as to what I'm having done, but expect to see a post about it on my main blog. Very exciting. 

And on Friday, me and my lovely dad are off to Manchester to go to the old set of where they filmed Corronation Street!! This is something I am very excited for and like a little child about it all. I've watched the show all my life and loved it and to be able to go on the tour of the set and visit the street, it's something I am so happy about and will literally be a once in a lifetime for me because in December, they're knocking it down. 

I think after that me and dad will go and do some shopping and go for food whilst in Manchester. I'm hoping to find the home of Pretty Green and the main store because well, it's my favourite shop in the world! 

Ah, well guys, sorry It's not been the best of posts to start off with! 

Thank you for reading :) 

Love you all. 

Demi x

New Beginnings.

Hello all, and welcome of course to my new Blog!

So, as well as having my main blog which you will find in the link below

http://adoseofdemileigh.blogspot.co.uk/

I have also decided that I will take on a completely brand new blog! 

This one will be a bit different from my main one though.

Let me explain... 

So, as I'm sure you're all aware, majority of Youtubers have two channels, a main channel with all their haul videos, tutorials and reviews and anything else really, and then they have their second channel which is usually a Vlog channel. Well, this is the same concept, only it's not on youtube.. or a channel (obviously). 

This blog will be my daily vlog equivalent. Whether this will actually work or not I'm not entirely sure but, you never know unless you try. 

I will update my main blog as much as i possibly can!! And same with this one too! 

This is something that is very new to me and I'm excited to take it on, I hope you all enjoy! 

Thank you all :) 

Demi x